Taking Over Me

I’ve been asleep for too long, in a dream
Dreaming of what it all means
Thought I knew but it was a haze
Wasn’t living, I was stumbling in a daze

Anger and hate taking over me
I craved the dying flesh, like a zombie
Desires misplaced, chased only sin
And it was eating me alive from within

My heart, like the night of the living dead
I need Someone to breathe life into me again
God, put life-giving flesh on these cadaverous bones
Bring the dawn of a new day and lead me home

Give me new life, only You are able
I’m done chasing fantasy and fable
Cleanse me of the darkness inside
And fill me with Your Light

I’m done running after rotting meat
I want to follow the One on the Mercy seat
Forgive me for listening to my deceived heart
Please God, give me a fresh new start

**Inspired by Ezekial 36:26-27, Ezekial 37 (Vision of the Valley of Dry Bones), and Romans 5

For anyone who wants a fresh start or wants to understand the Gospel better:

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Putting On New Glasses

This might be considered part two for Warning Signs.

I realized last summer my glasses weren’t working as well as when I first got them.  Especially in my left eye. When my parents asked what I wanted for my birthday, I asked for new glasses.

This time, instead of going to Walmart, I went to my Mamaw’s eye doctor. I liked how he worked with her, plus they had frames that I LOVED.

I picked out cheap frames the first time at Walmart, because I wasn’t sure how well the glasses would work, how well I’d like them, and if I could handle wearing them for long periods. (I have weird sensitivities on parts of my body and one of those is the bridge of my nose. It gets so sensitive sometimes that the discomfort is almost painful.) I thought I was getting them for driving only but it turns out I need them all the time.

In a similar way, I realized God was real, and I needed to be saved. I tested out this Gospel to see if it would work out for me. I thought believing what Jesus did was enough and didn’t really pursue Him after that as I should. I pursued knowledge mostly. I would put on my “spiritual glasses” to gain knowledge or pray (when things got hard) but then take them back off when things went smoothly. Just like I would wear the glasses when I would start getting a headache and then take them off when my eyes felt better.

But I needed them all the time.

Eventually, I learned to live with the slight discomfort of wearing glasses. But since when should the Gospel make me feel comfortable? Accepted? I didn’t really think much of it.

Then this year, just like my real glasses, I realized my spiritual glasses were distorted and blurred. I only thought I was seeing clearly. I do realize that my glasses didn’t change, my eyes did. But the glasses were cheaper frames and I could look over them. Sometimes I wouldn’t use the glasses even though they were on my face.

Finally, I had to accept that these glasses weren’t for me.

Upon realizing the spiritual glasses needed to be changed, I let Him give me His glasses. Then I started seeing things more clearly. I started seeing lies more clearly. When God gives the Holy Spirit’s vision instead of man’s cheap glasses, it is as if a veil lifts.

“The people (including many professing Christians and pastors of churches) who are buying into this emergent (paradigm shift) movement are wearing what I will term here “spiritual sunglasses,” which block their eyes (perception, judgment, discernment) from seeing the Light (Christ, truth, righteousness, holiness), i.e. they are spiritually blinded by Satan to the deceptions and manipulations of truth which they are accepting as truth.” – Sue

Just like I needed glasses because I couldn’t see well, so the spirit needs a new lens for seeing things as they truly are. Seeing sin for what it is. Seeing the Gospel. Some have blindfolds over their eyes and refuse to see it at all, being blinded by the Light.

Some have been blinded by a false Gospel (or a real Gospel) and refuse to look at any light to save their eyes from the discomfort and pain of giving up this world. Before glasses, I was light-sensitive. After glasses, I was less light sensitive. Now I can walk outside in the sunlight and I’m not usually that light-sensitive anymore. Same with spiritual glasses. The Holy Spirit revealed the Light and the beauty. It doesn’t hurt anymore. And now the Light is free to expose darkness and sin in my life.

And others put on spiritual glasses and think they see clearly, but they actually distort the gospel. It may look like they put on spiritual glasses, but instead of correcting vision, they got Satan’s deceiving prescription instead of God’s holy prescription. Things that are sinful look pure.

My new prescription makes my vision so much clearer. The new glasses are a bit heavier and not so “fluffy”, so I’m aware they are on my face all the time from the discomfort. But I’ll take the discomfort and nudgings of the Holy Spirit over headaches and distorted seeing any day. ❤

Asking, Seeking, Knocking

I thought I knew You
But knew another instead
Junk food for the soul
Not nutritiously fed

Eating.

My spirit grew fat on the sugar
And my health deteriorated
On the outside I looked healthy
But inside the lies saturated

Dying.

Then I was fed with Truth
Junk food tasted sweet
But I didn’t want to die –
I drank the milk and moved to meat

Fighting.

I felt as if I weren’t on solid ground
But were standing on sinking sand.
Like the floor was not sound
And I had no helping hand.

ASKING.

What is truth
And what is lies
Who is the Rock?
Oh hear my cries!

Praying.

I trusted no one, feeling like
I went from a dream to awake.
Is this You or is that You?
Which is real? What is fake?

SEEKING.

You will reveal Yourself
To those who seek
That was a promise
To the humble and meek.

KNOCKING.

I looked through the pages
And read the words
Ate the book, found You
The milk did not turn to curds

Worshipping.

Your words are not sour
You truly bring life to my spirit
Your words are sweet to taste
And keep me from the pit

Singing.

I praise You for bringing
Your light into me
And saving my soul
And shining through me

Living.

I will follow You
Death cannot find me
Perhaps I’ll sleep for a time
But You will raise me

Everlasting.


I feel like I need to apologize to mom… using her delicious sundaes and Oreo cake as an example of unhealthy foods. 😅  They sure were good though! And that’s also mom’s ground turkey stew and seasoned chicken and veggies.

Good stuff. And she made enough for an army. I ate it for lunch and dinner every day for days and I’m not complaining. It was a delight. 😋 

Hope you enjoyed and see you around! ❤

Ignorance Is Not Bliss

This is part three of a short series. The first being I Let Them In and the second being Mighty To Save, but you don’t have to read those to understand this. 🙂

During a Q&A with a pastor, this topic came up and I really wanted to address it. I was a bit shy about making posts like this at the time I heard the question and answer, so I don’t remember exactly how this went. Therefore, I’m going to paraphrase. The question was something like, “When I was young, I committed a sin. If I didn’t know that something was a sin and I did it, does it still count as a sin?” The response?

“You were young and didn’t know it was sin. God forgives you, you have nothing to worry about.”

This messed me up as a teen. I believed if I avoided reading parts of the Bible or researching if certain things were sin, then it wouldn’t be sin for me since I didn’t know it was sin. I still did Bible study for end times stuff because I was fascinated with that subject, but I didn’t really read other stuff. Like this would keep me from being accountable.

SIN IS SIN.

Whether we know it or not, sin is sin. When we know something is sin and we have been doing it, the appropriate response isn’t thinking I wasn’t held accountable because I didn’t know. (Sorry for the triple-negative. 😜) The correct response should be repentance. Remorse for the sin. Realizing how God sees sin. Turning away from sin.  Thinking that I don’t have to repent because I didn’t know, and then not doing it in the future is enough – it isn’t enough. It leaves Jesus out of the equation.

It’s like finding a bill that is overdue. You don’t think, “Oh, I didn’t know I owed that so I don’t need to worry about it.” Someday, you’ll have to pay it. But we can never pay for sin. However, the good news is that Jesus can. And He did – if we will just go to Him. ❤

Mighty To Save

What is sin?
Ignorance is not bliss
I didn’t question –
Temptation kissed

I took his hand,
Not knowing what pain
Would lie ahead
But God saw the stains.

What was a crime?
Sin gently fogged my vision
Smeared them with grime
Clouded my lens…

My glasses once clear
Were no longer.
Sin grinned and sneered
Oh, I wished I’d been stronger!

Blinded by guilt –
I was too far gone, I knew
But His blood has been spilt!
He paid the price, this was true!

Oh my Lord, what have I done?
I fall to my knees and look above –
May I let go of what He hates,
And embrace what He loves!

No condemnation in Jesus –
I repented and from sin, turned away.
There is no guilt in His grace,
Forgiveness is here to stay!

It wasn’t too late for me –
He pulled me from the grave.
Death where is your victory?
Oh, Jesus is mighty to save!


This is part two of a series, with last week’s I Let Them In being the first part. And this will have a part three! Who knew? I didn’t. XD I intended for next week’s post to stand alone, but this poem and last weeks came to me. Praise Jesus. 🙂 See you soon! ❤

I Let Them In

Don’t let them in
But I opened the door in ignorance
Don’t flirt with sin
But I smiled in my innocence

Oh my Husband, when I turned away
The inner demons came out to play
I let them in Your house
And now…
I can’t fight any longer
They fight hard

My house is a mess
Like a tornado tore through
Sin tries to convince
But I see his words are untrue

Oh my Husband, when I turned away
Sin came with intent to slay
I let him in Your house
And now…
I can’t fight any longer
I fight hard but he fights harder

I’m sorry, I’m sorry
I try to turn away
But they came out to play
But they intend to stay
I… give… up…

“Oh my child, I am stronger
If you just let Me fight for you
None can stand against Me
Inner demons have to leave
Sin and Satan have to flee.”
You came and cleaned Your house
And now…
I’m no longer
A slave to sin and inner demons


Firstly, sorry to Jackie but this seemed like a good image of what I wouldn’t want to let in the door. XD She was actually meeting Angel, our 15-year-old, though the screen and was hissing, spitting, growling and generally letting Angel know that she didn’t care for her at all. And you know me. I thought her trying to be mean was cute so I took photos. Later I realized how mean she actually looked. XD

As with Flirting With Sin, this will have another part or two to go with it. 🙂 Hope to see you there! ❤

The Dangers of Flirting With Sin

(Part one, the poem, can be found here. This is part two but you don’t have to read part one to understand this one.)

Until last year, I didn’t put too much stock in God still using dreams and visions to reach people. But then… I had a dream myself. I wasn’t sure what to do with this besides heeding the warning it gave.

Fast forward to now.

I had two people reach out to me in which they had a specific dream/vision about me. I don’t want to disclose a lot of details because it’s pretty clear it was directed at me.  However, they were accurate.

What this led to were several things. There are things I’ve been struggling a bit with. As you probably know, I’m more private with things like this, so this is what I do want to share.

Firstly, there was a YouTuber I liked that started making darker videos for some reason. I love autumn but this is the season in which it’s easier for me to struggle. I think he was doing it “all in fun” but I didn’t care to see all the spooky Halloween displays, and then…

Then this person live-streamed a seance.

It became clear – I had to unsubscribe from the channel. It may look harmless, flirting with sin and spooky seances and such but it’s not a joke to mess with the dead.  (Deuteronomy 18:10, Isaiah 8:19) This wasn’t too hard for me. I did it, and it didn’t sting too much. But there was another area I needed to address.

When I posted the Life Updates and Gaming post, I didn’t remove the game app I was addicted to, that had a blatant sin in the plotline. I only off-loaded the app. It gave me a sense of security to still have it so that I could put it back on someday if I wanted to. Why was I finding security in potentially going back to playing this gaming app? I hadn’t even played it since April. I shouldn’t be attached to it. And yet, I never did get rid of it.

I was still clinging to that sin.

Hearing the first dream, I knew there were things I was clinging to. I wasn’t actually doing anything with the game, so I used that as an excuse that it couldn’t be that. But there were other things I was struggling with. Thought it could be something else. With the second vision, the message came in right in the middle listening to this podcast: Stop Playing In The Shadow Of Sin (which I highly recommend by the way). I don’t think it was a coincidence.

I immediately got on my iPod and completely removed the app.

For the other things, there will be a bit of time to work that out – not as easy as removing an app or unsubscribing from a channel. But it’s not worth flirting with sin. Temptation is what got Eve in trouble. Flirting with sin instead of being firm with it resulted in the fall.

It may look safe to only flirt, but desensitizing can happen. Then it’s easy when sin extends its hand to take it and let him lead to full-on sin.

However, we have Jesus’ hand to grab hold of instead!