You Don’t Know

Hardships and pain
Illness and heartbreak
I prayed until my heart bled
And when there was no
Response, I cried out
What is this about?
In agony I said,
“You don’t know…

“You don’t know what pain is
You are God, you don’t know what it’s like
You are perfect
And I’m a defect
You don’t know me, you don’t know.”

But then I hear a response to my cries
“Unum pro multis. One for the many.
Stricken with reeds, said not a word
Slapped and spat on My face
How do you think I survived being scourged?
Was it only by courage?
No, it was by prayer to the Lord
And by The Father’s grace.”

“No, you don’t know what pain is
You are human, you don’t know what it’s like
Hung and died
So you can know Me, so you can know…”

But many don’t want to know…

I can’t imagine what it must be like for Him when He DIED for His creation and… then watched His created beings choose the world instead of Him. And continues to watch. Watching them embrace death instead of everlasting life. Watching them walk toward hell and perish. The pain must be nearly unbearable.

“And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness!’ ” (Matthew 7:23)

“But He will say, ‘I tell you I do not know you, where you are from. Depart from Me, all you workers of iniquity.’ There will be weeping and gnashing of teeth, when you see Abraham and Isaac and Jacob and all the prophets in the kingdom of God, and yourselves thrust out.” Luke 13:27-28

The Lord is not slack concerning His promise, as some count slackness, but is longsuffering toward us, not willing that any should perish but that all should come to repentance. (Second Peter 3:9)

“For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved.” (John 3:16-17)

No Longer Haunted

No Longer Haunted

Every time I think that I’m dead to sin,
It returns as an undead zombie
Threatening to eat me alive from within
Dying to self is not easy…

Making it stay dead is the hardest part of all
It’s like it comes from the pit of hell
A vampire that tries to feed upon my very soul
And leave me an empty shell…

I’m haunted by the self that I know
I am supposed to be dead to
A spirit of the past that shows
Up when I least expect it too

I want to give up this ghost but I can’t let go
Help my unbelief, O LORD, help my unbelief
This filth, this sin, this horror, is all I know
Let me see Your joy instead of the sins’ grief

I want to live, truly live, for You, Savior –
I can’t do that as long as I’m possessed
By this wickedness inside of my core
I want to be in Your favor, I want to be blessed!

I’m made from dirt, I’m made from sod
Wipe me clean, O Lord, make me innocent
Make me Your child, my Sovereign God
Make me white as the snowy mountain’s ascent

This darkness has a hold of my heart
Its grip threatens to crush me
And with its teeth, tear me apart
I can’t escape even though I want to desperately

Only You can help me, O Lord, only You!

It has me in its chains
That bind me and hold me.
“They no longer reign;
Don’t you know you are free?”

What? If I am free then how–
“You have been free since you believed.
It is in your hands now
Will you of these burdens be relieved?”

You purchased my freedom
So rich in kindness and grace
With the blood of Your Son
Our sins, You forgave.

I will let go, Lord, I will.
They can’t hold me
With Your Holy Spirit, fill
Me with Your humility.

Even at my worst,
You loved me when I didn’t love;
And because You loved me first
You waited to let me crawl back to You above.

I’m to come to You; for alone, I can’t do it.
By my lonesome I’m defenseless and weaponless;
But with You, I have the mighty Sword of the Spirit.
I’m done with the dead; I took Your yoke, and found rest.

I look back now and see how far I’ve traveled
I can’t believe it, it can only be Jesus Christ.
From the clutches of Hell, from Sin, unraveled,
All because of His glorious, humble sacrifice.

Bring my soul out of prison, that I may praise thy name: the righteous shall compass me about; for thou shalt deal bountifully with me. (Psalm 142:7)

Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, Who hath blessed us with all spiritual blessings in heavenly places in Christ: according as He hath chosen us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love: having predestinated us unto the adoption of children by Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the good pleasure of His will, to the praise of the glory of His grace, wherein He hath made us accepted in the beloved. In whom we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, according to the riches of His grace… (Ephesians 1:3-7)



Hello, WordPress friends! I’m back! I may not get to read blogs again until next week though. If all goes well, we’re moving from dial-up Internet to cable, at which point I will be able to load a blog within a few seconds instead of one every ten minutes. XD (Took about thirty minutes to load my “add new post page” and upload a photo for this post. My awful Internet went from bad to worse which is frustrating, haha.)

There are so many things that I can’t wait to post. I have new photos I’ve taken and new poems I’ve written over the break, and I’ve been nominated for the Liebster Award (Thank you, Celebrate His Love), the Seven Days Seven Photos B&W Challenge (Thank you, Miriam), The Fall Tag, and This is My Genre Tell Me Yours book tag (Thank you Incomplete Thinker – two tags, wow :D)! And if I’m missing any, I’m so sorry; I’m very behind in reading blogs right now; these are the ones I saw. 😅

I hope y’all had a great October! ❤

**Special thanks to Refreshing Spirit who helped me with the “snowy mountain’s ascent” line. 🙂