The Dangers of Flirting With Sin

(Part one, the poem, can be found here. This is part two but you don’t have to read part one to understand this one.)

Until last year, I didn’t put too much stock in God still using dreams and visions to reach people. But then… I had a dream myself. I wasn’t sure what to do with this besides heeding the warning it gave.

Fast forward to now.

I had two people reach out to me in which they had a specific dream/vision about me. I don’t want to disclose a lot of details because it’s pretty clear it was directed at me.  However, they were accurate.

What this led to were several things. There are things I’ve been struggling a bit with. As you probably know, I’m more private with things like this, so this is what I do want to share.

Firstly, there was a YouTuber I liked that started making darker videos for some reason. I love autumn but this is the season in which it’s easier for me to struggle. I think he was doing it “all in fun” but I didn’t care to see all the spooky Halloween displays, and then…

Then this person live-streamed a seance.

It became clear – I had to unsubscribe from the channel. It may look harmless, flirting with sin and spooky seances and such but it’s not a joke to mess with the dead.  (Deuteronomy 18:10, Isaiah 8:19) This wasn’t too hard for me. I did it, and it didn’t sting too much. But there was another area I needed to address.

When I posted the Life Updates and Gaming post, I didn’t remove the game app I was addicted to, that had a blatant sin in the plotline. I only off-loaded the app. It gave me a sense of security to still have it so that I could put it back on someday if I wanted to. Why was I finding security in potentially going back to playing this gaming app? I hadn’t even played it since April. I shouldn’t be attached to it. And yet, I never did get rid of it.

I was still clinging to that sin.

Hearing the first dream, I knew there were things I was clinging to. I wasn’t actually doing anything with the game, so I used that as an excuse that it couldn’t be that. But there were other things I was struggling with. Thought it could be something else. With the second vision, the message came in right in the middle listening to this podcast: Stop Playing In The Shadow Of Sin (which I highly recommend by the way). I don’t think it was a coincidence.

I immediately got on my iPod and completely removed the app.

For the other things, there will be a bit of time to work that out – not as easy as removing an app or unsubscribing from a channel. But it’s not worth flirting with sin. Temptation is what got Eve in trouble. Flirting with sin instead of being firm with it resulted in the fall.

It may look safe to only flirt, but desensitizing can happen. Then it’s easy when sin extends its hand to take it and let him lead to full-on sin.

However, we have Jesus’ hand to grab hold of instead!

Life Updates – Computers And Gaming

Back in March, I went through a crisis of gaming. (You can read about that here: Accomplishments and Achievements) And then when I thought it was over… I realized I had only scratched the surface.

 

(I didn’t want to seem like I’m directly attacking the game so I blocked it out.) I had one game left that I was obsessed with. I thought I had it under control until I saw this. I knew I had a problem. And instead of recognizing I needed to deal with it NOW, I asked God for a sign that I needed to stop. And even in my weakness, He did provide that. The next part of the game, in the plot of the storyline, was something the Bible specifically stated was wrong. There were other questionable things before that which I should have known were red flags, but I really didn’t want to stop so I ignored them. I knew then that I HAD to stop. So I did. And this week:

It’s still higher than I’d like, but it’s much better than it was. 🙂

Right before this, a few weeks ago, I tried to turn on my old gaming laptop and discovered that it was dead. I cried over that one. It hurt. My dad and I will probably look at it at some point, but as of now, I think I’m okay with not being able to access it. If I hadn’t backed up my photos and files (meaning all the novels I’ve ever written) THEN I would be still panicked and super sad. But as it is, this basically means I can’t play Oregon Trail or Heroes Might and Magic IV., and I can’t use PhotoImpression 1999, which is what I used to edit some photos. (Now playing with Picasa and Canva to do what I used to do for photo editing.)

I realized how connected to these things I was and I didn’t want them to become idols. So I distanced myself from them. Giving up the game hurt, especially for the first few days. But the laptop, after the initial shock, didn’t hurt as much. So I think I’ll be fine with restoring it soon without too much worry. (Long as I don’t play Oregon trail for five or six hours afterward. I adore that game and as long as I’m responsible with time, I’m fine with a round or two of it. Nothing bad in it. And it’s actually quite educational. “Oh no you got bit by a snake!” “Oh no you ate a poisonous plant!” “You caught 1000 pounds of fish!” “Oh no you nearly drowned in the river!” “The wagon dumped in the river and you lost supplies!” “An ox stepped in a hole!” “Oh no you just got mauled by a bear!” I need to stop now, I could gush about this game for too long. XD)

I have another part to this coming out soon, titled Warning Signs. 🙂 See you later! ❤