I Let Them In

Don’t let them in
But I opened the door in ignorance
Don’t flirt with sin
But I smiled in my innocence

Oh my Husband, when I turned away
The inner demons came out to play
I let them in Your house
And now…
I can’t fight any longer
They fight hard

My house is a mess
Like a tornado tore through
Sin tries to convince
But I see his words are untrue

Oh my Husband, when I turned away
Sin came with intent to slay
I let him in Your house
And now…
I can’t fight any longer
I fight hard but he fights harder

I’m sorry, I’m sorry
I try to turn away
But they came out to play
But they intend to stay
I… give… up…

“Oh my child, I am stronger
If you just let Me fight for you
None can stand against Me
Inner demons have to leave
Sin and Satan have to flee.”
You came and cleaned Your house
And now…
I’m no longer
A slave to sin and inner demons


Firstly, sorry to Jackie but this seemed like a good image of what I wouldn’t want to let in the door. XD She was actually meeting Angel, our 15-year-old, though the screen and was hissing, spitting, growling and generally letting Angel know that she didn’t care for her at all. And you know me. I thought her trying to be mean was cute so I took photos. Later I realized how mean she actually looked. XD

As with Flirting With Sin, this will have another part or two to go with it. 🙂 Hope to see you there! ❤

Flirting With Sin

I flirted with sin,
Even though I was already taken.
I’d made my vows then,
And I planned to keep them.

Sin flirted back, an affair
I didn’t mean to ask for.
Now sin owns me; I can’t bear
to go on anymore!

Oh, my Lord, by Sin I’ve been marred!
I meant forever when I said it,
I didn’t mean for it to go this far!
Now I’m heading for the pit,

Only You can save me,
Only You make me clean!
I fall to my knees
And watch the sin flee!

Your saving power is incredible!
My face is on the floor,
My heart, filled
With Your love once more.

I can’t contain it within me –
Thank You for Your love,
Thank You for Your mercy,
Both from You above!


There will be a part two to this next week, so stay tuned! ❤

Book Review: The Purpose Driven Life

I read this book last year – I’m so far behind in writing reviews, haha.

The Purpose Driven Life: What on Earth am I Here For?The Purpose Driven Life: What on Earth am I Here For? by Rick Warren
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

This book has a lot of great points and I enjoyed the writing style and the writing style overall. But there were a few things I wanted to specifically point out.

“Fear is a self-imposed prison that will keep you from becoming what God intends for you to be. You must move against it with the weapons of faith and love.”

Fear is a prison. I’ve seen some reviews (on Goodreads) tear this apart because of the odd comparison with faith and love being weapons. I really don’t have a huge problem with this imagery, but I wanted to go ahead and see what the bible says. I didn’t find a place where faith and love are weapons, but in Ephesians 6:16 where it talks about the Armor of God, faith is a shield. (Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.) Along with Faith, these others are also mentioned as different pieces of armor: Truth, Righteousness, Gospel of Peace, and Salvation. Only one is a weapon: The Sword of the Spirit, which is The Word of God. So I think it would actually be more appropriate to use the shields of faith and love (and I don’t have a problem with those two together because Paul used them together often, such as in Ephesians 6:23). But I still appreciated this. 🙂

“Nothing matters more than knowing God’s purposes for your life, and nothing can compensate for not knowing them.”

At first, I wasn’t sure, but I think he is stating the same thing that came to my mind – that the most important thing is God’s will. His purpose and will are the same, right? However, I do think that knowing Jesus period is the most important thing. Not just His will for your life. So I liked this reminder.

“It is impossible to do everything people want you to do. You have just enough time to do God’s will. If you can’t get it all done, it means you’re trying to do more than God intended for you to do (or, possibly, that you’re watching too much television).”

…or browsing too long on the Internet. Guilty. X) Putting my will before His. It’s not just doing everything everyone wants. Its also doing too much that I selfishly want. This part resonated with me.

“You don’t bring glory or pleasure to God by hiding your abilities or by trying to be someone else. You only bring him enjoyment by being you. Anytime you reject any part of yourself, you are rejecting God’s wisdom and sovereignty in creating you. God says, ‘You have no right to argue with your Creator. You are merely a clay pot shaped by a potter. The clay doesn’t ask, “Why did you make me this way?” ‘ “

This, I have problems with. The Bible does say that, but I think this is out of context. So, here is the verse in context:

“What shall we say then? Is there unrighteousness with God? Certainly not! For He says to Moses, ‘I will have mercy on whomever I will have mercy, and I will have compassion on whomever I will have compassion.’ So then it is not of him who wills, nor of him who runs, but of God who shows mercy.
For the Scripture says to the Pharaoh, ‘For this very purpose I have raised you up, that I may show My power in you, and that My name may be declared in all the earth.’ Therefore He has mercy on whom He wills, and whom He wills He hardens. You will say to me then, ‘Why does He still find fault? For who resists His will?’ On the contrary, who are you, O man, who answers back to God? The thing molded will not say to the molder, ‘Why did you make me like this,’ will it?” (Romans 9:14-20)

The way Rick comes across is that we should be unapologetically ourselves. This verse is NOT talking about the moment when God created us. It talks about resisting God’s will. I could go on a rant about being ourselves, but I already did that here: (https://followinghimbesidestillwaters…)

Think about it. “Anytime you reject any part of yourself…” Does this mean I am not to reject the sinful parts of myself? Jesus said we should die to ourselves daily. We must give up flesh like a caterpillar gives itself up to become a butterfly. To not give up sinful parts goes against Scripture. I’m not saying Rick meant it this way. I only think he should have clarified this part of the book because it could be taken the wrong way. 🙂

“I read that book a long time ago, and I don’t remember Rick ever suggesting that we should not try to overcome our sins. If that is so, why read into this quote what he did not mean to say? The way I read this is, if I have irreparably crooked teeth, or freckles, or shortness, or difficulties understanding certain subjects, or illness, or disability, or poor eyesight, or hearing loss, or any other number of genetic problems, it would be extremely prideful of me to be angry with God and very disrespectful to argue with Him for how He made me. Also, coveting the abilities God has given to others instead of appreciating and using the abilities that He has given me to serve Him would be another way to be the clay arguing with the potter.” — Ruth, in the comments of this post

**Clarification – I realize this is needed after Ruth’s comment. 🙂 When I was a teen, I used the excuse that God must have wanted me this way (depressed, gothic, must want to suffer emotionally) when I was younger because He didn’t take away the pain and didn’t seem to care if I was on the darker side. (I thought if He didn’t like it, He would stop me. He IS God after all.) So that’s why I was so harsh on this point of rejecting parts of yourself. If I had read this when I was younger without a little clarification, I would have used it as a “well look He made me like this so there is no point in changing.” If Rick is speaking about disabilities, physical challenges, illnesses or things like that, then I can agree with this. 🙂 I think my personal struggles clouded my thoughts and I added meaning into it that Rick didn’t mean. After much consideration, I really don’t think the intention was that it’s okay not to give up sin. I just want to be careful that anyone who was of the same mindset I was doesn’t take what he said here as an excuse.

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He Has Delivered My Soul In Peace – Psalm 55 inspired poem

Please don’t hide from my plea;
O Lord, hear my prayer,
As I mourn vociferously,
Show me Your loving care!

The voice of the enemy,
The wicked oppress me,
They cast iniquity upon me
And in their anger, hate me.

My heart is painful within
The terrors of death fall on me,
Fearfulness and tremblin’
Horror has overwhelmed all of me.

Oh, if I had a dove’s wings,
I would fly away to be at rest
I’d go far away from evil things
And remain in the wilderness

I would hurry in my escape, you see;
From storms and chaos, for I have seen
Violence and strife in the city
Of where I had once been.

They go about it night and day,
In their midst are mischief, evil, and sorrow,
Deceit and guile walk the streets to play
And it will likely be the same tomorrow.

It was not an enemy that shamed me –
For if it had been, I could have persevered.
But it was a friend, and equal, who named me –
Not someone who hated me; but one I revered!

I have fond memories of sweet conversations,
Walking in Your house in each other’s company.
Let them die, for wickedness is in their mansions
And let them be sent to a place of misery.

As for me, I will call upon Thee
And my Savior shall rescue me.
Evening, morning, and noon I talk to Thee
And cry aloud, and He shall attend to me.

He has delivered my soul in peace
From the many battles that raged inside me
You shall hear, and never will cease
You shall afflict them, for they don’t know Thee.

The acquaintance has put his hands
Against such as to be at tranquility.
Why he did these things, I don’t understand.
He broke his promises to me.

Smoother than butter were his words
But war was in his heart
His words softer than oil, yet he drew swords
Only to tear me apart

I cast my burdens upon Thee, Lord; You’ll sustain me.
You shall never allow wickedness to win; I trust in Thee.
But you, O Lord, will bring them down to the pit.
Deceitful men shall not live out half their days!


Psalm 55 inspired. 🙂 (To read the psalm that I based this on, click here.) I was unsure about tremblin’ but… I didn’t see another way to make that line work. 😅

The others in this series are: Psalm 88 (Draw Nigh!), Psalm 96 (The Lord Of Hosts Reigns Always!), and Psalm 01 (Those That Follow Thee). Because I never seem to write in order. 🤣

Jesus Is The Word And The Lord

In the beginning, was the Word
God spoke and the worlds were made
With Him, the world’s foundations laid.
Jesus is the Word and is the Lord

God incarnate, became man
And dwelt among us
The Christ, Jesus
We beheld the I AM

Why do you call Him good?
No one is good but One
So have you seen the Son?
Do you recognize as you should?

Those who saw
Saw the Father above;
His Son, sent in love,
Within Him not a flaw!

Oh, behold His glory!
See that He is life!
There is no strife
With Him, come and see!

Any who do not say that He
Is God come in flesh man
Is not of God – they are damned
An antichrist who seeks to deceive

I profess aloud –
Jesus, God incarnate
He came to compensate
For man’s sin
And will come again
In the clouds

As a judge.


In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God. All things were made through Him, and without Him nothing was made that was made. In Him was life, and the life was the light of men. And the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not comprehend it. John 1

And the Word became flesh and dwelt among us, and we beheld His glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father, full of grace and truth. John 1:14

No one has seen God at any time. The only begotten Son, who is in the bosom of the Father, He has declared Him. John 1:18

Jesus said to him, “Have I been with you so long, and yet you have not known Me, Philip? He who has seen Me has seen the Father; so how can you say, ‘Show us the Father’?” John 14:9

So He said to him, “Why do you call Me good? No one is good but One, that is, God. But if you want to enter into life, keep the commandments.” Mat 19:17

He went a little farther and fell on His face, and prayed, saying, “O My Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass from Me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as You will.” Mat 26:39


It’s been a while since we’ve done one of these and it’s great to finally have another to post. This is what resulted from study notes of the Gospel with Refreshing Spirit. (You can view her post right here!) Looking forward to the next one. ❤

Those That Follow Thee

Blessed are those that don’t follow
In the ways of the impious,
Stand in the way sinners do
Or sit in the seat of contemptuous.

Delight is in Your Law, Lord;
Joy should be found in Thee!
I Meditate day and night on Thy Word
And I shall never ever cease!

Those that follow Thee are like a tree,
Planted by the river of flowing water.
It bears fruit in its season; its leaves
Will never wither, and it shall prosper!

Wheat’s chaff is the wicked and their way –
They will be blown elsewhere by the wind
They shan’t outlive the judgment day –
Their unholy traditions shall perish then.


This is based heavily on the first Psalm. 🙂 (Shout out to TR who just posted a summary a couple of weeks ago for this psalm!) A long time ago, I thought about writing a poem based on each psalm, but I never did. I did get to Psalm 88 (Draw Nigh!) and Psalm 96 (The Lord Of Hosts Reigns Always!) but never got much farther. Or so I thought. Turns out, I wrote this one and forgot about it. And never posted it. So here it is. 🙂 Perhaps someday I will reach that goal.

Warning Signs

A year ago, I got glasses for the first time.

I started experiencing headaches. They were mild at first and I thought they were sinus headaches because I get allergies, but this just didn’t go away. I began to get paranoid about what was causing it. Something serious or not?

I knew I couldn’t see long distances well. I hadn’t for as long as I can remember. But I was fine with closer up stuff. Or so I thought…

The change was so gradual that I didn’t realize how bad my eyes were. When I got glasses, I was amazed at how clear EVERYTHING was. Close up and far off. Now, without my glasses, I still get a headache in short order, and I can see why because of how blurry everything is.

I still ponder this at times when I take off my glasses and look around. Were my eyes THAT blurry before glasses and I just didn’t notice or have my eyes adjusted to the glasses and therefore, aren’t working as hard to focus which makes everything seem blurrier than I remember?

I don’t know for sure.

But I do know that sin can work the same way. Everything seemed great before, but then, little warning signs start to appear. A small headache, nah, it’ll go away if I ignore it. A little eye twitching, nah, it’ll be fine in time. But then the red flags get bigger and bigger until it can’t be ignored anymore.

And when the spiritual glasses are put on, suddenly everything is crystal clear. Those warning signs shouldn’t have been ignored. And the sin is seen for what it is. SIN.

And those painful little warning signs that were uncomfortable and stung a little was actually damage being done to the soul. It won’t go away. Sin has to be dealt with the same way.

And stopping sin is like putting on glasses for the first time and wearing them everywhere when not used to it. **It can make a person sick for a while. But sin is sin, it’s not something to slowly back away from (depending on what it is. For me and my gaming, I would be like, I’ll play it less today than yesterday and that will be fine. But I had no self-control and would end up playing for hours. Playing for 2 hours instead of 3 was still not good). I like how Brandon worded it – stop struggling with your sin and KILL IT.

We need to stop ignoring the warning signs and put on those spiritual glasses!


(**On an unrelated note, for me when I first put on my glasses, I ended up with an upset stomach like motion sickness. It shocked my whole system on the first day. The lady told me if it was my first time getting glasses, it might be a good idea to wait until the next morning and put them on first thing so the eyes will be rested and can get used to it. But I was so excited to see everything that I didn’t heed her warning. So I paid the consequences. 🥴🤣🤷🏻‍♀️)