The Secret Place, The Sacred Space

During times of struggle, I go to the secret place
Yes, I flee from the world out there
I fall to my knees in prayer
While I’m troubled, I dwell in the sacred space

As the pride of lions
Circle, ready to devour the flock
He will set me on His rock
He will hide me in His pavilion

He answered in the secret place of thunder
I dwell in the shadow of the Almighty
I fall before His throne on my knees
In awe and childlike wonder

You hide my prayers in Your presence, the secret place
You put my tears into Your bottle
And seal them in the sacred space
They are written in Your book
You keep them to Yourself, where they are safe
I bow myself before You, my Lord –
Almighty Lord, You are my Holy hiding place!


O God, You are more awesome than Your holy places.
The God of Israel is He who gives strength and power to His people. Psa 68:35

You number my wanderings;
Put my tears into Your bottle;
Are they not in Your book? Psalm 56:8

For in the time of trouble
He shall hide me in His pavilion;
In the secret place of His tabernacle
He shall hide me;
He shall set me high upon a rock. Psalm 27:5

You called in trouble, and I delivered you;
I answered you in the secret place of thunder;
I tested you at the waters of Meribah. SELAH Psalm 81:7

You shall hide them in the secret place of Your presence
From the plots of man;
You shall keep them secretly in a pavilion
From the strife of tongues. Psalm 31:20

He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High
Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. Psalm 91:1

โ€œBut you, when you pray, go into your room, and when you have shut your door, pray to your Father who is in the secret place; and your Father who sees in secret will reward you openly. Matthew 6:6


I was also inspired by this song. โค

I’d also like to thank Ruth for helping me with edits to this. โค

I hope to get back into blogging; lately, I haven’t slept well and it’s affecting my concentration, meaning it’s harder to write. ๐Ÿ˜…ย  Also been spending many hours gardening. ๐Ÿ˜€ I hope to catch up with you all soon! ๐Ÿ™‚

Crimson Drops

They have put a thorn of crowns on His brow
Crimson drops roll down His cheeks
And under the purple robe
His back bleeds

Lift up the thorns, still dripping clots of gore
They scourge Him creating a river of red
That splashed upon the floor
Without remission, His blood shed.

Flung to the hard ground
To wood, hands and feet nailed –
He made not a whimpering sound
Nor did He flinch or flail.

They pierced His side
Running forth blood and water
On that cross, He died
And this pleased the Father.

The spotless Ram,
Perfect sacrifice
The blood of the Lamb,
Lord Jesus Christ!


Mark his brow-they have put about it a crown of thorns, and the crimson drops of gore are rushing down his cheeks! . . . But turn aside that purple robe for a moment. His back is bleeding. ..They lift up the thongs, still dripping clots of gore; they scourge and tear his flesh, and make a river of blood to run down his shoulders! This is the shedding of blood without which there is no remissionโ€ฆThey fling him to the ground; they nail his hands and feet to the transverse wood, they hoist it in the airโ€ฆBlood from his head, blood from his hands, blood from his feet. They pierce his side, and forthwith runneth out blood and water. — Charles Spurgeon


Usually, Bible verses inspire me to write, or nature. But this quote… I couldn’t help it, I had to write about it. ๐Ÿ™‚

Happy Easter! โค

My Emotions

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My emotions
Like a wild beast
A tiger crouching
Ready to pounce
And tear at my insides
As if my heart were its prey

My emotions
Canโ€™t be tamed
For every time I reach
They bite like ravenous wolves
Making me bleed tears
That fall down my cheeks

My Helper comes
Extends His arm forward
I cringe as I expect
Frustration
Bitterness
Sadness
Anger
Pain
To attack Him
But He looks at me
โ€œWill you let Me in the gate?โ€
โ€œYes Lord.โ€
I open the gate
He goes into the wild
He pets them and calms them
Patience
Restoration
Joy
Love
Empathy
Tamed at last


But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no law. (Galatians 5:22-23)


Hello, and happy Monday! ๐Ÿ™‚ The first two photos are two cats I had years ago, Simba and Sonny. I feel like I need to apologize to Jackie for using this photo again, but it captures the untamed feeling I was going for. ๐Ÿ˜… I know this is a little different than the poems I usually post but I wanted to try something different and raw. I hope you enjoyed and have a great day! โค

Asking, Seeking, Knocking

I thought I knew You
But knew another instead
Junk food for the soul
Not nutritiously fed

Eating.

My spirit grew fat on the sugar
And my health deteriorated
On the outside I looked healthy
But inside the lies saturated

Dying.

Then I was fed with Truth
Junk food tasted sweet
But I didnโ€™t want to die –
I drank the milk and moved to meat

Fighting.

I felt as if I weren’t on solid ground
But were standing on sinking sand.
Like the floor was not sound
And I had no helping hand.

ASKING.

What is truth
And what is lies
Who is the Rock?
Oh hear my cries!

Praying.

I trusted no one, feeling like
I went from a dream to awake.
Is this You or is that You?
Which is real? What is fake?

SEEKING.

You will reveal Yourself
To those who seek
That was a promise
To the humble and meek.

KNOCKING.

I looked through the pages
And read the words
Ate the book, found You
The milk did not turn to curds

Worshipping.

Your words are not sour
You truly bring life to my spirit
Your words are sweet to taste
And keep me from the pit

Singing.

I praise You for bringing
Your light into me
And saving my soul
And shining through me

Living.

I will follow You
Death cannot find me
Perhaps Iโ€™ll sleep for a time
But You will raise me

Everlasting.


I feel like I need to apologize to mom… using her delicious sundaes and Oreo cake as an example of unhealthy foods. ๐Ÿ˜…ย  They sure were good though! And that’s also mom’s ground turkey stew and seasoned chicken and veggies.

Good stuff. And she made enough for an army. I ate it for lunch and dinner every day for days and I’m not complaining. It was a delight. ๐Ÿ˜‹ย 

Hope you enjoyed and see you around! โค

I Let Them In

Donโ€™t let them in
But I opened the door in ignorance
Donโ€™t flirt with sin
But I smiled in my innocence

Oh my Husband, when I turned away
The inner demons came out to play
I let them in Your house
And now…
I canโ€™t fight any longer
They fight hard

My house is a mess
Like a tornado tore through
Sin tries to convince
But I see his words are untrue

Oh my Husband, when I turned away
Sin came with intent to slay
I let him in Your house
And now…
I canโ€™t fight any longer
I fight hard but he fights harder

Iโ€™m sorry, Iโ€™m sorry
I try to turn away
But they came out to play
But they intend to stay
I… give… up…

โ€œOh my child, I am stronger
If you just let Me fight for you
None can stand against Me
Inner demons have to leave
Sin and Satan have to flee.โ€
You came and cleaned Your house
And now…
Iโ€™m no longer
A slave to sin and inner demons


Firstly, sorry to Jackie but this seemed like a good image of what I wouldn’t want to let in the door. XD She was actually meeting Angel, our 15-year-old, though the screen and was hissing, spitting, growling and generally letting Angel know that she didn’t care for her at all. And you know me. I thought her trying to be mean was cute so I took photos. Later I realized how mean she actually looked. XD

As with Flirting With Sin, this will have another part or two to go with it. ๐Ÿ™‚ Hope to see you there! โค

Flirting With Sin

I flirted with sin,
Even though I was already taken.
I’d made my vows then,
And I planned to keep them.

Sin flirted back, an affair
I didnโ€™t mean to ask for.
Now sin owns me; I can’t bear
to go on anymore!

Oh, my Lord, by Sin Iโ€™ve been marred!
I meant forever when I said it,
I didnโ€™t mean for it to go this far!
Now Iโ€™m heading for the pit,

Only You can save me,
Only You make me clean!
I fall to my knees
And watch the sin flee!

Your saving power is incredible!
My face is on the floor,
My heart, filled
With Your love once more.

I canโ€™t contain it within me –
Thank You for Your love,
Thank You for Your mercy,
Both from You above!


There will be a part two to this next week, so stay tuned! โค

Book Review: The Purpose Driven Life

I read this book last year – I’m so far behind in writing reviews, haha.

The Purpose Driven Life: What on Earth am I Here For?The Purpose Driven Life: What on Earth am I Here For? by Rick Warren
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

This book has a lot of great points and I enjoyed the writing style and the writing style overall. But there were a few things I wanted to specifically point out.

“Fear is a self-imposed prison that will keep you from becoming what God intends for you to be. You must move against it with the weapons of faith and love.”

Fear is a prison. I’ve seen some reviews (on Goodreads) tear this apart because of the odd comparison with faith and love being weapons. I really don’t have a huge problem with this imagery, but I wanted to go ahead and see what the bible says. I didn’t find a place where faith and love are weapons, but in Ephesians 6:16 where it talks about the Armor of God, faith is a shield. (Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.) Along with Faith, these others are also mentioned as different pieces of armor: Truth, Righteousness, Gospel of Peace, and Salvation. Only one is a weapon: The Sword of the Spirit, which is The Word of God. So I think it would actually be more appropriate to use the shields of faith and love (and I don’t have a problem with those two together because Paul used them together often, such as in Ephesians 6:23). But I still appreciated this. ๐Ÿ™‚

“Nothing matters more than knowing God’s purposes for your life, and nothing can compensate for not knowing them.”

At first, I wasn’t sure, but I think he is stating the same thing that came to my mind – that the most important thing is God’s will. His purpose and will are the same, right? However, I do think that knowing Jesus period is the most important thing. Not just His will for your life. So I liked this reminder.

“It is impossible to do everything people want you to do. You have just enough time to do God’s will. If you can’t get it all done, it means you’re trying to do more than God intended for you to do (or, possibly, that you’re watching too much television).”

…or browsing too long on the Internet. Guilty. X) Putting my will before His. It’s not just doing everything everyone wants. Its also doing too much that I selfishly want. This part resonated with me.

“You don’t bring glory or pleasure to God by hiding your abilities or by trying to be someone else. You only bring him enjoyment by being you. Anytime you reject any part of yourself, you are rejecting God’s wisdom and sovereignty in creating you. God says, ‘You have no right to argue with your Creator. You are merely a clay pot shaped by a potter. The clay doesn’t ask, “Why did you make me this way?” ‘ “

This, I have problems with. The Bible does say that, but I think this is out of context. So, here is the verse in context:

“What shall we say then? Is there unrighteousness with God? Certainly not! For He says to Moses, ‘I will have mercy on whomever I will have mercy, and I will have compassion on whomever I will have compassion.’ So then it is not of him who wills, nor of him who runs, but of God who shows mercy.
For the Scripture says to the Pharaoh, ‘For this very purpose I have raised you up, that I may show My power in you, and that My name may be declared in all the earth.’ Therefore He has mercy on whom He wills, and whom He wills He hardens. You will say to me then, ‘Why does He still find fault? For who resists His will?’ On the contrary, who are you, O man, who answers back to God? The thing molded will not say to the molder, ‘Why did you make me like this,’ will it?” (Romans 9:14-20)

The way Rick comes across is that we should be unapologetically ourselves. This verse is NOT talking about the moment when God created us. It talks about resisting God’s will. I could go on a rant about being ourselves, but I already did that here: (https://followinghimbesidestillwaters…)

Think about it. “Anytime you reject any part of yourself…” Does this mean I am not to reject the sinful parts of myself? Jesus said we should die to ourselves daily. We must give up flesh like a caterpillar gives itself up to become a butterfly. To not give up sinful parts goes against Scripture. I’m not saying Rick meant it this way. I only think he should have clarified this part of the book because it could be taken the wrong way. ๐Ÿ™‚

“I read that book a long time ago, and I donโ€™t remember Rick ever suggesting that we should not try to overcome our sins. If that is so, why read into this quote what he did not mean to say? The way I read this is, if I have irreparably crooked teeth, or freckles, or shortness, or difficulties understanding certain subjects, or illness, or disability, or poor eyesight, or hearing loss, or any other number of genetic problems, it would be extremely prideful of me to be angry with God and very disrespectful to argue with Him for how He made me. Also, coveting the abilities God has given to others instead of appreciating and using the abilities that He has given me to serve Him would be another way to be the clay arguing with the potter.” — Ruth, in the comments of this post

**Clarification – I realize this is needed after Ruth’s comment. ๐Ÿ™‚ When I was a teen, I used the excuse that God must have wanted me this way (depressed, gothic, must want to suffer emotionally) when I was younger because He didn’t take away the pain and didn’t seem to care if I was on the darker side. (I thought if He didn’t like it, He would stop me. He IS God after all.) So that’s why I was so harsh on this point of rejecting parts of yourself. If I had read this when I was younger without a little clarification, I would have used it as a “well look He made me like this so there is no point in changing.” If Rick is speaking about disabilities, physical challenges, illnesses or things like that, then I can agree with this. ๐Ÿ™‚ I think my personal struggles clouded my thoughts and I added meaning into it that Rick didn’t mean. After much consideration, I really don’t think the intention was that it’s okay not to give up sin. I just want to be careful that anyone who was of the same mindset I was doesn’t take what he said here as an excuse.

View all my reviews on Goodreads here! ๐Ÿ™‚