Just When I Thought I Would Crumble…

Just When I Thought I Would Crumble…

The hedge of protection had been removed; suddenly I was vulnerable like Job. The enemy started to beat me until my heart cracked. I cried out to God to patch the cracks, but I received no answer. I trusted in Him, asked for Him to stay with me through it, not knowing His plan; and continued on.

Soon, I was under fire. The fiery darts of the enemy pierced me, leaving holes in my soul. I cried out to God to patch the holes, but He did not reply. I wondered if this was His plan or was the enemy trying to have his way? I fought in His name and prayed, but also trusted in Him.

The voice of the enemy came and tore my mind to shreds, trying to get me to question everything. What is from God? What is not? How do I discern? I study the Bible and ask for His wisdom, and trust in Him.

All of the other things coming at me began to affect my strength. I became weak. I asked Him to please protect my spirit from harm. It was weak from my cracked heart, holey soul, shredded forlorn mind, and lack of strength. My faith wanted to remain strong, but it saw its own weakness, and I prayed for Him to help my unbelief.

Finally, when I thought I would crumble, I heard this: 

“Now that your heart is cracked, My Light can shine through you and reach others. It is not to be kept under a bushel, nor hidden within a heart.”

“Now that you have been pierced, My Holy Spirit can flow out of your soul much easier. No longer will you have to overflow; I can flow through you freely.”

“Now that you are questioning everything, I can use that to help you learn more about Me and draw you closer to Myself. Before, you thought pridefully that you knew much – how you knew some things but did not know them! – but in asking Me for wisdom and reading My Word, your pride is crumbling like the walls of Jericho and you can see what I say and not what people say.”

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“Now that your spirit is weak, you may find true strength in Me. For when you are weak, you are actually strong! Before, you relied on yourself, but now you have nothing left and must turn to Me for your source of strength.”

“Your humbleness to My plans has made it possible to create an outflow of My love through your damaged heart and soul. You gave them to Me to do what I will with it, and I did. What the enemy meant for evil, I will turn for good. Continue, my faithful servant, loving Me with all of your cracked heart, pierced soul, wondering mind, and weak spirit, and I will be with you every step. The road won’t be easy – you may crack even more, be pierced again, question everything you once believed about Me, and find that you are too weak to serve Me. But that is how I need you so that I can use you. Do you trust Me?

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And then, despite the state my heart, soul, mind, and spirit was in, I felt peace.

“I trust You, my Lord.”


“No one, when he has lit a lamp, puts it in a secret place or under a basket, but on a lampstand, that those who come in may see the light.” (Luke 11:33 NKJV)

Jesus said to him, “You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind.” (Matthew 22:37 NKJV)

But He gives more grace. Therefore He says: “God resists the proud, but gives grace to the humble…” James 4:6

“But as for you, you meant evil against me; but God meant it for good…” Genesis 50:20

And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28 KJV)

And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong. (Second Corinthians 12:8-9 NKJV)

This is a little something I wrote a few months ago after praying about a rough patch I was going through. 🙂 I hope it can also bring hope to others. ❤

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I Am His

I Am His

I no longer live
But Christ lives in me.
All I have to give
Is my life, and gladly
I give it to Thee!

I live by faith alone;
I am no longer mine,
I am no longer my own,
But I am Thine –
This body is Thy shrine.

By faith in the Son,
I live my life –
The One who won
Through Sacrifice –
The Savior Jesus Christ

Who died in my place.
His mercy came as a flood
Washing His wondrous grace
Over me, making this child of sod
Into a Child of God.


I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God. who loved me and gave himself for me. Galatians 2:20

Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and that you are not your own? 1 Corinthians 6:19 NASB


I’ve had this written for many months, but I couldn’t get the wording of the last five lines to sound right. Finally, it fell into place – thank you, Jesus! ❤

The Light Of The World Award

Thank you to T. R. Noble for nominating me for this award! ❤ I’m so honored! And sorry it took me a while to get to this – I’m behind again, haha. I look forward to catching up with everyone. ❤

The Apostle Paul said, “Pay everyone what is owed: taxes to whom taxes are due, revenue to whom revenue is due, respect to whom respect is due, honor to whom honor is due.” (Romans 13:7). I believe that true believers and followers of Jesus Christ are actually like lighthouses for God. For this reason and because Jesus himself said that we are the “light of the world,” I decided to create The Light of The World Award to honor authors (bloggers) whose presence on the web serve as a shining light for Christ and His Gospel of salvation. If you have been nominated to receive this award and chose to accept it, here is what you need to do.

The Rules

  1. Save and add one of the award images (pictured above) on your blog.
  2. Create a page/post to mention the award nomination and thank the person/blog that nominated you. Make sure you provide a link to their site.
  3. Give credit to the creator of the award (Lighthouse Devotions) and provide a link to the site as well.  (http://www.Lighthousedevotions.blog)
  4. List the rules.
  5. Answer the next four questions on the same post:
    1. What three words would you use to describe your blog?
    2. In what way(s) can a Christian shine for Christ?
    3. What bible verse (quote it) talks about being a light in a dark and lost world?
    4. What Christian song do you know that has the word “light” in it? Provide a link if available.
  6. Nominate 7 or more people/blogs to receive the award. Briefly explain why you think they should receive it and provide a link to their sites.
  7. Contact them and let them know that you nominated them.
  8. Provide them with a link to the Rules page.
  9. Say a prayer thanking God for His light and ask that He continue to shine it through you and your blog.
  10. Keep shining the light of Christ wherever you go and in whatever you do!

“You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden. – Matthew 5:14 (NAS)

  1. What three words would you use to describe your blog?
    • Jesus, Poetry, Nature
  2. In what way(s) can a Christian shine for Christ?
    • Therefore, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God. (First Corinthians 10:31 NKJV)
  3. What bible verse (quote it) talks about being a light in a dark and lost world?
    • You are all sons of light and sons of the day. We are not of the night nor of darkness. (First Thessalonians 5:5 NKJV)
  4. What Christian song do you know that has the word “light” in it? Provide a link if available.
    • I hope that “lighthouse” works. XD It has light in the word “lighthouse.” 🙂

Nominees and why I picked them:

The nominees are below, and the reason is the same for each of them – as far as I know, they have not been nominated for this award yet, and they brighten my Reader with each post they publish. ❤

Faye

Melani

Dreamer’s Outlet

Cavelle 

Lisa Beth

Sharon

Linda

Carly

Natalie

Diana

Leigh

Tammy (I know that you don’t plan to post for the month of June and that you are behind in getting to award and tags, so no pressure, haha. 😊)

Keep On The Path

Apple Tree Sapling

A seed was planted in fertile ground.
It was indeed slow growing,
Because tall weeds abounded,
Choking, no longer living or knowing

Jesus; it flirted with seemingly delightful death.
Eyes were opened and God plucked the weeds
And then gave it a Life-Giving Breath –
No, it is not the end of this seed!

Rocks tried to make it harder to grow,
And when it saw how far it came,
Winds of self-consciousness came to blow
And it wilted over in shame.

“But stand tall, My little plant!
I, the Great I am, died for you!
Don’t think of what you can’t
But think of what I can do!

“You should be proud, I’ve brought you far.
Keep on the path that I’ve set for you, little one.
Be satisfied with the plant that you are,
But yet, strive to grow toward the Son.”

The 3 Day 3 Quotes Challenge Day Nine

The grand finale! 🙂 I’m going to go in depth as to why I like this quote – er – poem. I hope that you enjoy it as much as I did. ❤

Make us of one heart and mind – For just as we have many members in one body and all the members do not have the same function, so we, who are many, are one body in Christ, and individually members one of another. (Romans 12:4-5 NASB)

Courteous and kind – But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law. (Galatians 5:23 – 24 NASB)

Lowly, meek in thought and wordTake My yoke upon you, and learn of Me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. (Matthew 11:29 KJV)

Never by fretful passion stirred – And those who are Christ’s have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. (Galatians 5:24 NKJV)

Free from anger, free from pride, – He that is slow to wrath is of great understanding: but he that is hasty of spirit exalteth folly. (Proverbs 14:29 KJV) When pride comes, then comes shame; but with the humble is wisdom. (Proverbs 11:2 NKJV)

Let us in God abideAbide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in Me.” (John 15:4 NKJV)

All the depths of love express“A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another; as I have loved you, that you also love one another. By this all will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another.” (John 13:34-35 NKJV)

All the height of holinessAs obedient children, do not be conformed to the former lusts which were yours in your ignorance, but like the Holy One who called you, be holy yourselves also in all your behavior; because it is written, “YOU SHALL BE HOLY, FOR I AM HOLY.” (First Peter 1:14-16 NASB)


Nominee:

Shakiyasmessage 

3 Day 3 Quotes Challenge Day Eight

I love the encouragement in this verse not to worry. (And the verses before and after it too.) 🙂

As for this photo, I’m fairly certain that this is a baby cardinal. I was so fortunate to find him. I remember the parents were trying to scare me away as I took photos, and back then, I had the old camera so I had to get very close to take the photo. I’m surprised that he let me. I prayed that he would stick around for a few good shots and he did! I had to leave after a few minutes though because my cats were getting curious about what I was photographing and I didn’t want him to become lunch. Therefore, I left and gave my cats their dinner early so he could fly away in peace. 🙂


Nominee:

Maggie

3 Day 3 Quote Challenge Day Seven

Not that I have already attained, or am already perfected; but I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me. Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:12-14, NKJV)


Fun fact – that’s my bike. My trusty banana seat bike. ❤ I’ve had her ever since I was a tween and I still ride her sometimes. Her name is SeaStar. (The decals say “SeaStar” so I always have called her that.) This is my “before” photo – I plan to give her some fresh paint sometime because the old is starting to peel off and she’s starting to rust. 😨 And I want to add a basket and a bell and new tassels on the handlebars – I think I pretty much want to try my hand at restoring her.


Nominee:

Dream Filled Daughter